When it’s well, it gets better and even better than good.

I’m escalating.

I feel unsure and uneasy.

About work and about love.

Maybe life’s too good and settled that I’m feeling weird about the peacefulness.

Oh god…pls don’t let anything stir up…

I want to be a good girl this time.

How to tell if u’re really in love and contented?

Sigh.

It takes a good long time to stay alone and be happy. And it’s going to take a good long time to pursue this happiness with you.

Over the past 2 years, I had my friends to depend on and it’s gg strong. Now I have you with my friends, that’s just a life complete. You came at the right time. Doesn’t matter how, doesn’t matter why. You, with my friends, just warm me up.

Thanks for the kisses, thanks for the cuddles, thanks for telling me you love me and even more thanks that u practice what u preach.

I’m taking this time, slowly and steadily, to know u and to show u that u’re bringing the best out of me. And I like that. You tore my wall down in a way so quickly I’m almost comfortable.

I believe everyday will be like that. And I continue to believe it this way.

Xoxo.

First, Ri and K met. And me and A met. Each other’s best friend crossed path. We confirmed K’s a bubu, which made my stance clearer. I got K’s number…like FINALLY. We went for drinks together…like FINALLY. What more can I ask for when she holds my arms and we laughed at silly jokes. She leans on me as we laughed. My heart really pumped so hard, it felt like she could hear. Was she flirting with me? I don’t know…but I really really like her. Can’t wait to see her tmr!

Then came sat, my bestest PIC and BFF gave me a really sweet surprise. PIC, I really missed you so much! We had the best slumber party @ BFF’s plc, dressup. It was really sweet how PIC and I cuddle as we wake up! Not in a gf kindda way, but the genuine friendship cuddles. I totally love it. I’ll never forget this night.

And I must really thank X, if it wasn’t for her, I’ll nv meet the two bestest pals in this lifetime. Now, I only hope K will wanna get to know me better and you never know what u’re gonna get.

I’m gg to sleep so sweetly tonight. I really love this moment. Good night world. Loadsa xoxo.

We finally had our drinks together!

Omg. My heart was racing.

Yday was my happiest in years!

I even see you in my dreams.

I don’t fucking care. I’m gg to make a move and make you mine no matter how long it takes.

You make me head over heels over you.

Sigh. It’s been years since anyone made me feel this way!

Then I get a girl who’s 22 telling me she likes older women and that we should hangout.

Seriously. I dunno if that’s flattery or mockery.

I feel old. Sigh.

It’s amazing to see how I, myself, evolve into who I am today. No, I’m not being self-conceited. But because I’m truly living, loving and being myself; Not for anyone.

Then I reminisce things I did in the past, my travels, my relationships, my quarter life crisis, my friends, my parents, my hair, my teeth, my achievements…I’m so glad I went through those. Those memories, good and bad, will be fondly remembered.

Without the past, I can’t look forward. Without the past, I won’t know to appreciate. Without the past, I wouldn’t take bold steps to be who I am.

I thank myself, for bracing through tough times alone.

Now, I’m flirting without guilt. I’m eating without guilt. I’m drinking without guilt. Smoking without guilt. Loving without guilt. Living without guilt.

My revelation in life, evolved into guiltless success.

I love life.

You made my everyday.